First Timers

Some say that his past lovers have abused it.
Some would say that may have caused some confusion but his heart's mistake
is purely accidental?
Please believe me when I say I think she's charming,
and that she's sweet: that can't be all that much alarming.
Yeah I know that I'd love her,
but something tells me that there's one thing,
which is needed that I find she might be missing,
(far down there)
I'd feel as confident,
as a sickly leper in a crowd of screaming children.
It's just that maybe I could go on make believing,
and dreaming of a good man with his grinning.
Yet, Aphrodite or fathers or anyone that'd bother,
would not believe me if I said "I take it back.
That was me only fibbing",
when stripped bare,
and feeling confident,
as the guilty verse not ready for it's strict inditement.
Sometimes they say that's how it goes,
when you feel totally exposed;
and left with your own equipment,
with just one un-changed circumstance,
that I'd change given just one chance,
and end up right here where I am.
You know I could really love her,
but there's something that is needed that I find is fucking missing!
Some may find that love is just incidental,
or dependent on the fitting parts,
that interlock like key and slot,
to sexual potential.
Is that where it is based when we don't speak it,
and that's the reason that some work to keep it hidden?
Yet, Aphrodite or fathers or anyone that'd bother,
would not believe it if you said "I take it back.
That was me only fibbing"
...or just scared.
They all seem so frightened,
when they think the future in store for them is un-certain...
Some say that just how it all goes,
when you feel totally exposed,
for just one un-changed circumstance,
that I'm sure that they would break their neck,
for if given their one last chance,
to prove to themselves that it was all just accidental...